pa, how i wish that your still here, i wish that your proud of me for what i have accomplished and will be accomplish in the future. i still feel very empty ever since your gone, but you told me to let go and let GOD. its really hard to forget you but i know that you're still here with me, guiding and protecting me as always.
- Mood:
tired
see you next friday ^^. can't wait
- Mood:
yey~
so tired. very tired. uber tired.
i am happy. so happy. am i happy? haha weird ^^.
- Mood:
grumpy
i miss my childhood..worry-free
- Mood:
crazy - Music:My Sharona
its been 5 days since i started working/traning in global strategic. its fun since i get to learn a lot of new things from them. but since its a new environment for me, i feel like im starting from scratch as if im on my freshman year again. way back in my college years, i really don't like, but i dont hate, any subjects that has got to do with numbers (e.g: finance, taxation, econmics). but the company where i work deals with a lot of numbers AS IN A LOT!! since most of our client are attornies that deals with foreclosures/mortgage etc. now tell me, isn't it ironic? hahha
we are required to only speak in english in the office so that means that were not allowed to speak in tagalog or "bakatabaka" (the term used by our boss, pertaining to the tagalong language, why it is called 'bakatabaka'? i really dont know.. haha). , so i really dont need to apply for call centers since im expose to people speaking english.. *nosebleed*
thought its fun there, im still in the process of adjusting myself to this new environment. i really feel that im taking a crash course in taxation, finance and economics( 3-in-1!) hahaha. they kept on asking me questions about what i have learned so far and i really can't put into words whats on my mind thats why its really hard for me to answer them directly. then i finally realized why they kept on asking me questions - they notice that im too quiet, that compared to the other new employees, im the most quiet of them all. so they're forcing me to talk by asking questions. but i told them that its not really my nature to ask questions since im not yet in the process of doing the real job, so i really dont know what to ask. but thank God, that i was able to come up with several questions today.. hahaha
hay~ i just wish that i will be able to "master" my training, for next week, so that they can see that though im not that talkative, i know how to do well my job.
they dont know what their asking me to do - when the day comes that i were able to adopt in their company. they will regret the day that they forced me to talk.. hahaha
p.s:
- Mood:
brain drain - Music:JunJin - Hey Ya!
- Mood:
aish! chugulle! - Music:craig david : 7 days
i never expect that the people i dont expect to greet me, well they greeted me.. and the people i expect to greet me, well they didn't.. i change my birth date in friendster from dec 3 to jun 8.. just to see if my "so-called" acquaintances/classmates (from highschool)/friends (from highschool) will remember my birthday without looking in my account. the result? haha they didn't remember, well i dont care anymore.. im 20 now so things like this is something that i shouldn't give a damn anymore..
- Mood:
nanlilimahid
-kara, get a life, for crying out loud.. geezz
- Mood:
very sick - Music:Strong Baby: Seung Ri
- Mood:
damn, girl~ - Music:U Go Girl: Hyori
... wow, for almost a year [3 years to be exact], i never saw ging behave very hyper like today. up until this very moment im still shocked .. hahaha.. the champola oreo thing [she ate it, like how a hamster does.. haha so cute], the salad thing [she ate it for about 30 secs.. haha] and her famous phrase: "by wednesday i'll be normal" while shaking her head as if doing that she could be normal in an instant.. hahaha
we find it very funny but scary at the same time.. hahaha hope she stays the same [FOREVER].. hahaha
another unexpected happened last saturday, our class merged with the other section [4as2] for our modern japan and mandarin class.. while watching a documentary film in modern japan, i saw [for the first time] ging sleeping.. haha after the film ended.. i told ging that im too lazy to attend our last subject [LRT: Land Reform and Taxation] then unexpectedly she said that she, too, was lazy and wanted to skip class so she can go home early.. hahaha.. i was very surprised.. GING the FREAKY GENIUS wanted to skip class??? hahahaha
- Mood:
very sleepy - Music:Down A.K.A. Kilo: Lean Like A Cholo
a hour ago, dian [a classmate/friend of mine] ask me if i could look in the net, the guest list of pops in seoul.. since she heard somewhere that Evan of Click-B is in the guest list. and since i don't have anything to do [except for watching a th-horror movie/ a thailand horror movie] i search for the gest list. and so i've read that Evan is really coming..
UNFORTUNATELY, the event is on July 5 [saturday] around 3pm, so they [im not that interested since i don't like big crowds.. hehehe and i think Battle is not included in the guest list.. heheh] can't come since we have a class that day and he have a quiz in LRT [Land Reform & Taxation] tsk tsk XD
- Mood:
wala naman ang Battle e~
its been,what?, 2 months since my last entry. i never or rarely got the chance to write in my lj for the fact that 1. im too lazy to write, 2. there is nothing interesting to write about, 3. dont want to.. hehehe
to be honest, ive been thinking for quite a long time now, what are my plans after i graduate.. or if there is any. i envy some of my classmates because they already have plans for their "life". some of them already have an internship in some embassy and some have a part time job and earning money as early as today. i rarely see myself in any situation that has a connection to work. maybe its just to early for me to decide what plan/s i have for myself or im just soo damn lazy to think of any.
anyway, back to reality.. tomorrow is dooms day.. haha its our reporting in PSY and i dont have any clue what will be the outcome of our report regarding our experiment, conducted last week. after our PSY class, we will have a quiz in our SPN class, which BTW i haven't read the notes that ive coped from my classmate [thanks coco].. i really, really dont know what will happen tomorrow but i wish that of all the days of this entire week, tomorrow will be the most "happy" day for me.. ^___^
- Location:somewhere over the rainbow.. corny
- Mood:
sleep.play.love
- Location:outer space..
- Mood:
ureshii desu - Music:Big Bang: Goodbye Baby
while waiting for my
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Sa antok ko, nakalipad na ako sa ibang deminsyon, sa ibang mundo, sa ibang kalawakan. Malaya mang nakakalipad ang diwa ko kung saan-saan, nandito pa din ang buo akong katawan, nakakulong sa apat na sulok ng kwartong ito. Gusto kong mahanap ang binhi ng katahimikan, ang binhi kung saan mahahanap ko ang matagal ko ng inaasamasam na kalayaan, kung saan makikilala ko na ang totoong ako.
Malayo na ang narating ng diwa ko, nakaabot na sa kaduluduluhan ng mga pangarap ko. Ang mundong ginagalawan ko ay taliwas sa mundong ninanais ko, malayong-malayo. Sa mundo ko ako ang namumuno, ako ang nasusunod, ako ang lahat.
Malayang-malaya ako sa mundo kong ito. Abot langit ang tayog ng mga pangarap ko, mga pangarap na kahit na sa panaginip ay hindi matutupad, mga pangarap na sa sobrang dami kahit isa walang matupad. Pangarap kong lumipad sa mundo ng mga panaginip, ninanais kong marating ito at balak ng hindi na bumalik pa kung saan ako nagmula. Marahil doon, hindi ko na kailangang matikman ang pait ng realidad ng buhay, hindi ko na mararanasan pa ang iba't-ibang sakit na dulot ng kamalian ko sa buhay, at hindi na madadama ng mga taobng nakapaligid sa akin ang sakit na idinulot ko sa kanila.
Nais ko ng lumaya..
Sana maguwian na kami... :D
- Location:time space warp...
- Mood:
sleepy.. - Music:Eru: If I Was Reborn
Sir Candido didn't show up for our Retorika class yesterday so we had an early dismissal, Malorie, Gela and I stayed in UST after buying some food. We stayed in our tent (Gela's Starex). We talked about almost anything, then at some point our topic became serious, i never thought that we will be talking about the only one topic that i really don't want to talk about.. LOVE.. haha but as our conversation gets deeper, i somewhat learn the real story behind malorie and her "good-for-nothing" (i realized after i heard the story that he deserved to be called that ) ex-boyfriend break-up story. i also learn gela's complicated love story.. hahaha
We talked for almost 3 and a half hours because by the time i checked my watch it's 8:45 and we started chatting around 5:30. another thing i notice is that we never had a dull moment, we finish one topic then stated another one then go back to the first topic.. i really had a great time bonding with them..
Gela gave us, Malorie and I, a ride near Legarda, but before we "separate our ways", i remember that the last thing we talked about is ghost.. funny thing is that Malorie is alone in the back seat because i was at the passenger seat and Gela, of course, is in the driver seat. Malorie said: "uy, wag naman kayong magkwentuhan ng ganyan, magisa lang ako dito sa likod.." then I told Malorie :" Malorie, wag kang lilingnon sa likod mo ah" then Gela said: "Malorie, sino ung katabi mo dyan.." then i added: "Malorie, ingat ka dyan ah, may nanghahawak ng paa diyan", I was still having a great time that i didn't realize it was time for me and Malorie to get-off the car. ^____^
- Location:el labirinto
- Mood:
sleepy yet happy - Music:Eru: Finding Lost Memories
It has been 7 weeks since the last time i post in my lj. I've been buzy or should i say lazy for the past weeks. Our class started 2 weeks ago and i haven't adjusted yet, it has always been my problem since i can remember. I didn't attend my first subject today because i over slept, well.. here's the whole story.. i woke up around 8:20, i guess, and took a bath around 9:25, i went down to surf the net and watch some anime. around 11:15 i ate my lunch and watch some shows in my parent's television set. at 11:35 i fell dizzy and last time i remember i fell asleep. i woke up 1:10 but i didn't stand up for 10 mins, i just stared at my ceiling thinking about something but i can't remember. then i realize i was late for my first class...
I never usually get sick this easily but maybe i pushed myself too much to the extent that my immune system cannot function that well anymore. Anyway, we meet all our professors last week and i can say im ok with it. My spanish prof is less terror, than my prof last sem, but she told us that were going to have a 'song number' next week, which is TODAY!!, and so we need to memorize the himno nacional filipino and the oraciones (prayers) for today's activities.
I master the himno last night and i guess im gonna be alright for today. GOD help me!! ^__^v
- Location:UST Library: Humanities Section
- Mood:
wanna go home...
it was not the first time i dreamed about it, but the first one is not the same as of the second...
I woke up this morning around 5:00 am, becasue i was having a bad dream. In my dream, my mother was in front of a mirror and i was with her, when she left i saw a her reflection stayed behind, her reflection smiled at me (the kind of smile that gives you the creeps) and went after my mother.. i followed the 'reflection' but it was to fast.. when i cope up with 'her' it was too late.. she (the reflection) killed my mother. I was afraid that the 'reflection' will kill my father too so I ran downstairs to tell it to my father but he was in the bathroom and he can't hear me.. I saw my kuya and told him what happened but he just said that 'okay lang yan, wala na tayong magagawa..' then he left for work as if nothing happened. After my brother left, i cried and i was yelling that 'hindi yon ok, hindi ako ok at hindind-hindi na ako magiging ok..' I was telling myself that i was just a bad dream, right after i said that i woke up.
When i woke up, im not sweating like what i always see in the t.v, when boy or girl woke up for a bad dream. Maybe because it was raining so i didn't sweat, but i was thirsty and my throat was dry, then i remember what my mom instruct me to do if i have that kind of dream, she told me: 'pagganun ang napaniginipan mo, kumagat ka lang sa buhay na halaman, para dun malipat ung panaginip mo..' , So I went downstairs to drink some water and to do what my mom instruct me to do. I saw ate emma in the kitchen, I asked her: 'te, pwede ko bang kagatin un?, kasi nanaginip ako eh, namatay daw si mama' i was pointing to the plant that is beside our computer. She said: 'hala, oo pwede mong kagatin un..' I bite the palnt so hard and if only the plant could talk, it will scream in pain. After getting water from the fridge, i went upstairs to sleep again but before i left ate emma in the kitchen she asked me: 'nagising ka ba nung nagkakagulo ung mga ibon? kasi may pusang nakasamapa dun sa kulungan nila..' I said: 'hindi, ngayon lang ako nagising eh, bakit' then she told me:'kasi parang may narinig akong naglalakad sa taas eh, banda dun sa kwarto mo..'
- Mood:
make it go away.. - Music:Angel de la noche: David Bisbal
Three names I go by:
1. chekka
2. cheska
3. gerda.. haha
Three creatures that I hate:
1. FLYING cockroaches
2. frogs
3. BIG spiders
Three creatures that I love:
1. Dogs
2. my familiy
3. my friends.. hahah
Three things that scare me:
1. political subjects (foreign and political dynamics to be exact.. heheh)
2. clowns
3. math
Three of my everyday essentials:
1. sleep
2. music
3. internet
Three things I own now that I can live without:
1. MP3
2. money
3. TV
Three brands I love: none.. hehe i don't like branded stuffs
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Three of my favorite musical artists:
1. Asian Kung-Fu Generation
2. Maximum the Hormone
3. Dashboard Confessional
Three of my favorite songs: (at least as of this moment)
1. "I'm Coming" - Bi (Rain)
2. "Stolen" - Dashboard Confessional
3. "X-Dame" - Tackey & Tsubasa
Three careers I'm considering/I've considered:
1. Preschool Teacher
2. Translator
3. Tourist Guide
Three of my simplest joys:
1. writing in my lj
2. Hana-Kimi Ikemen Paradise
3. the ring in my finger
Three types of people that I like:
1. straight-forward people
2. chid-like person
3. funny guy
Three of the best places I've been to:
1. Gela's Car (our tent)
2. Ging's House (souzoujo)
3. Bagiuo
Three places I want to go on vacation:
1. Switzerland
2. Japan
3. Palawan
Three things I want to do before I die:
1. watch a concert of Asian Kung-Fu Generation
2. watch the sunset with someone
3. finding that 'someone'
Three simple things I am absolutely not good at:
1. memorizing lectures
2. talking english fluently
3. typing without looking at the keyboard
Who I Want to Meet:
1. Saito Tomohiro
2. God
3. Him
I'm tagging
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- Location:sala.. the only place.. heheh
- Mood:
jubilant - Music:Kiss - Kaerimichi no Love Song:TegoMasu

